It’s true for me, and I think it’s likely true for the entirety of humanity, that the hardest part of life is achieving balance between who we want to be, and who we are being.
I struggled with writing this blog post for awhile. I was afraid that if it wasn’t “puppies and kittens and magical art excitement” it wouldn’t have value. This is my art blog, after all. I should blog about art. But art is life.
Right now for me balance is hard. I’ve joked the last few months that my life goal is to become an Art Jedi (I am, and always will be, a consummate Star Wars fan). Something about the fictional idea of monks in pursuit of higher understanding (in my case, in pursuit of Pure Artness) is deeply appealing. Of course I want to be the sort of person who wakes up, meditates, and spends hour after hour in deep, meaningful art practice. I mean, when you put it that way, who wouldn’t, right?
Except I’m not an Art Jedi. And Jedi are fictional. And the sacrifices I would have to make in order to achieve Art Monk-status would be extreme.
I have a full time job unrelated to my art, a cat who I love spending time with, a garden I’m excited to start, and a host of amazing friends. I also enjoy writing, reading, and playing Pokemon, and I’m about to embark on a 2-week challenge where I only eat home cooked food.
This is my life as I’m leading it: not an Art Jedi.
This morning I didn’t get up and meditate and then spend hour after hour making deep, meaningful art. I got up, played with my cat, made banana-egg pancakes and started making sourdough bread.
But it’s still a good life, and I still make art (in fact, I’m working on my CC:Otherworld’s painting for this fortnight, and spoiler alert, but there are mermaids), and being an Art Jedi still lives in the back of my mind, whispering, “someday.”
Balance. (Easier said than done).
Your turn: Do you struggle balancing the platonic ideal you strive for with the life you actually live? What have you done to reconcile the disconnect?
One thought on “The Balancing Act”
Really interesting post, especially from a fellow Star Wars fan!
I used to do the whole “struggling to become an ideal version of myself” thing quite a lot of the time. However, I developed a serious chronic health problem and that kind of stopped all of that. Now my life is much simpler, I have a simple Christian faith which calls me to try to be loving to everyone around me (including myself). So I try to do all of the things I have to do in my life, and some of the things I love to do, and in doing all of that I try to follow the law of love in my heart.
I don’t have a view of myself anymore, I just get on with things. It’s odd because I find life more fulfilling like this than I did before in my days of dreaming of being something.
(…still kind of wish I was a Jedi sometimes !!!!)